Coins Damage Fountain

I’ve been looking for a jumping off point for this post, and today’s Daily Prompt provided just that starting line.

As I’ve now said multiple times, I was in Washington DC last week, and was reminded every day why DC is one of my favorite cities.  There are the obvious things, of course – the monuments, the buildings, the museums.  And then there are the more subtle things – the energy, which is rivaled only by New York City for me; the men and women in suits that look like they’re on a mission to save the world; the guys in black that are patrolling the roof of the White House and that you can see if you look really closely.

I share my birthday with Abraham Lincoln (Charles Darwin, too, though that doesn’t get us anywhere in this post).  Since I was small I have had a fascination with Mr. Lincoln, almost an obsession.  One of the manifestations of that interest involves visiting the Lincoln Memorial any time I am in DC, and preferably at night.  The walk this time took me through the WWII Memorial;

Three states I happen to be very familiar with...
Three states I happen to be very familiar with…

The Vietnam Veteran’s Memorial (which really is stunning at night);

No picture can do this scene justice
No picture can do this scene justice, particularly a crappy iPhone shot…

And then finally to see Mr. Lincoln:

The juxtaposition of how big he is up close to how big he is compared to the temple is ... striking
The juxtaposition of how big he is up close to how big he is compared to the temple is … striking

My time spent at the Memorial always leaves me feeling both invigorated and melancholic, if that is even possible.  I am inspired by his life and his work ethic, and being there makes me feel that I am a part of something much larger than myself, something grand and glorious.  But I get melancholic both at the sense that my life is passing and with each day it becomes less likely I’ll ever change the world, and also in that way melancholia always creeps up when you’re in a temple to remember the dead.

This trip, though, introduced a new introspection and thought process centered on the idea that Mr. Lincoln would disapprove of us today.  That he’d look at all of the fighting and bickering and gridlock and lack of progress and he’d get his hackles up and tell us all, in that high nasal voice of his, to knock it off.  Knock it the hell off.

What does this have to do with the Daily Post prompt about coins in a fountain?  I did not take the below picture, which is almost certainly from the FDR Memorial (which I visited but didn’t photograph), but I saw these signs everywhere, as well as the clear evidence that they were being ignored:

Coins Damage Fountain
Coins Damage Fountain

This illustrates my point better than I ever could with words.  This thing we have – the United States of America – is a precious thing, and a startlingly young thing in the grand scheme, and no guarantee exists that what we have must endure for ages. Instead what we have is an experiment that will only ever be as good and as successful as we make it, each of us.  Sure there are big decisions every day that we don’t understand – things like the budget, and health care, and military involvement around the world – and that we can’t influence.

But there are millions of small choices made every single day, the sum of which decides whether we have, for example, a clean and poignant fountain or a broken puddle full of loose change.  I want to live in a country that has the former, and the only way I know to do that is to learn, and care, and teach.  I’ll be bringing my sons to these places, and I’ll be teaching them that these are THEIR places, and that those places deserve our respect. That’s the least we can do to pitch in and make this whole thing work.

To make it a place I’d be proud to show Abraham Lincoln around.

Also, keep your pennies in your damn pockets.

Running in Public

As mentioned, I was on a work trip to Washington DC last week, and the week prior to that I was on vacation in Delaware. There has been a fair amount of traveling this year, with several trips down to Florida before we moved, and some of the ins and outs of taking a new job that lives in a sales department.  On each and every one of these trips – including the last two weeks – I brought running gear.  Shoes, clothes, Road ID, hat, headphones, the whole getup.  I was ready for it.

And I can count on one finger how many times I actually went for a run.  In the last two weeks, that number was zero.

These last two weeks have been strange, because in both cases I was in a place that I ordinarily would have been excited to go running in.  In Delaware we were less than a mile from the Rehoboth Beach boardwalk (and beach), and in Washington DC I was about a mile from the Washington Monument.  So the beach and the National Mall – two spectacular places to run, particularly in the early morning hours that I typically go. Instead of rocking it, though, I stayed up too late and ignored my alarm in the morning. I just didn’t go.

The failure was so real that I was forced to do some reflecting on it, to try and pin down what is going on inside that causes me to sabotage and outright ignore these efforts.  And I think I figured it out.

I’m afraid somebody might see me.

You see, I’m a fat guy.  Especially now.  And what I think about when people see me running is that they are seeing this guy:

2014 JFK Runway Run
2013 JFK Runway Run

or maybe this guy:

2013 Rock & Roll Virginia Beach Half Marathon
2013 Rock & Roll Virginia Beach Half Marathon

Or definitely this guy:

2014 Branford Road Race
2014 Branford Road Race

When I’m at home, I leave to go running at 5am.  And at that hour, I generally see no people.  Maybe one or two.  There is nobody at home awake, there is nobody on the road, there is just not much going on.  In a hotel, though, at 5am I’m going to run into somebody. I’m going to see a night clerk, or another guest at the little gym, or the doorman on my way out to the streets for a run.  And I’m going to be totally self conscious that they are judging me.  Or, worse, laughing at me.

Now, I know from experience that my instinct on this one is incorrect.  95 times out of 100, people don’t even notice.  We are so wrapped up in our own little worlds – we don’t care.  And the other 5 times out of 100, when people do notice, they’re almost always doing the “good for him” in their heads.  That’s what I’m doing if I ever notice somebody running that is not what you’d expect from a traditional runner.

But, for all of that, I still really struggle to go.  My mechanism, by the way, is to sabotage the morning by staying up entirely too late the night before.  This is another place where home is better, because my wife won’t let that go on for too long without shaming me.  Or at least making me feel awkward because I have to answer the question “what the hell were you DOING up that late, anyway?”

This wasn’t really a problem when I was at the peak of my running “career” (HA!).  I felt good enough that it didn’t matter so much.  I’m not there now, and I need to get over it.

Also, for the record, I’m incredibly torn about posting that picture from the Virginia Beach Half up there.  The one with my belly hanging out.  I really hate that picture.

Weigh In 8-7-2015

Following last week’s vacation-delayed weigh in, I had a travel week for work that had me worried about this one.  Travel is killer for me, and this week was not all that different.  I took my stuff but didn’t go for a single run (<sigh>), though I did walk nearly 5 miles on Wednesday afternoon seeing a bunch of National Mall Memorials that I somehow hadn’t hit in the past.  And I was very conscious of my food choices, though sometimes those were more “I’m conscious that this wasn’t a very good choice” kind of moments.

Given all of that, I’m very pleased with this morning’s weigh in.  The scale said 319.4, which is a loss of 1.2 pounds from last week and a total loss of 3.6 pounds.

1.2 pounds a week will get me to a very good place, so given that this wasn’t exactly a focused week for me, I’m ecstatic.  That also tells me that I’ll lose weight much more quickly when things are on the correct routine.  That’s not exactly a goal, but I know it is reality.

I know the posting has slowed down with the travel, but expect more this weekend / next week.  Several things to talk about.

Onward!

The Monocle

Near the Capitol. Just do it.

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Washington DC might be my favorite city

Traveling for work this week, and this is the first time I have been in DC since my half marathon last year. My goodness I had forgotten how much I love this city.

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Treasury in the foreground, White House in the back
Treasury in the foreground, White House in the back

Weigh-In 8-2-2015

So – not a great week.  Vacation happened.  <sigh>

Was supposed to weigh in on Friday, but because of a couple of travel days it didn’t happen until today, Sunday.  Since last Friday I gained 2.8 pounds, for a total loss of 2.4 pounds.

Two things happened.  This vacation was not one of those relaxing vacations.  26 people in the house, nearly half of which were children under the age of 6.  Including two of mine.  And this vacation is food heavy.  I did a good job staying within my points until Wednesday, which was my day to cook.  Chili dogs threw might right over the edge.  So food was a problem.  And though I brought all of my running stuff, I never did go for a run.  The baby got off schedule, and we struggled sleeping.  These, of course, are just excuses, but they were enough to keep me off-kilter.

We got home last night around 5:30 after two hard days of driving.  I intended to run this morning, but just didn’t get it done.  It would be easy to get discouraged, though that would be a huge mistake.  Routine will return, and with it a return to normalcy.  This week involves travel for work, too, so it’ll get harder before it gets easier.

I can handle the routine weeks, but I struggle to handle the non-routine weeks.  Next step is to figure out how to cope.

Onward.